There's no right way to grieve, and that's what you're doing. It takes as long as it takes. Hell, I still have dreams about the guy in college that basically destroyed my life - my brain auto defaults to him when I'm dreaming of being in a relationship with someone and it's been nearly 20 years since we were together.

High school reunions are filled with landmines that you don't realize until you're in them. I loved getting the chance to see everyone again and catch up, but at the same time omg was I glad that I never had to go back and be that person again.

*hugs*